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"Not all smiling faces have a fine heart."

Soft sobs left the lips of the person who sat in the cubicle,hand pressed against her skin to prevent any further voice that might flow out without her consent.

Her eyes welled up with tears again and again,sight getting blurry due to the thoughts that nakedly ran through her mind and vulgar assumptions throwing daggers on her vulnerable heart.

Rough hand flew through to wipe away her tears that dampned her skin as she tried to clear out any traces of tears formed on her face.

Her heart swell up with each another thought she took,the razor in her hand fall due to the way her hands violently shook as the tablets that were once in the left hand were gripped tightly.

The loud banging on the door didn't stopped as her heart beat started to wildly raise."yn,open the damn door."shouts were audible but the girl sitting in cared less.

It was not the first time this was happening,but they never thought to leave the fragile person sitting in the cubicle at all.

She couldn't form words at all,her hiccups worsening her communication skills,her voice camouflage the whole words she tried to make as sobs got more violent and deep drying her throat like a tarted dessert.

Her heart felt like rived,she was being rived,her heart already broken and broken was something she never used,

Never for her mother.a place of a person who represents the world,the earth,a mother.

Yes,a person who forgets all things just to forget her children,the same person who is compared to the kind and generous earth can be as scrouching as sun also.

Her body was cruel towards its own owner only,not listening to how bad the signals the neural system were sending commands on making up,but her soul wished to die.

End it finally,to let go what she had in the world for the goods of her mother,that one desire her mother had ever since she was born to just end the Existence of her and make sure she had no progeny was what she knew only.

Her heart which was once filled with love and extreme respect for her mother now was being clotted and chocked to death by hate and aversion.

She could not forgive herself for what she had stored for her mother,but she could not even feel happy with the fake feelings that always would doubt themselves regarding her mother if they were even genuine or not.

Just like her parching body,she could feel heat rushing through with dryness following her throat unable to even speak.



Hand wrapped around the phone that showed the messages from her mother made yn more vulnerable.that one message she felt so hurt by seeing,so bad seeing before or after anything,one thing still lingered in her mother's mind no matter how many years had passed and how many millions of times she had ignored her.



Her mother was active,must be talking to her sister's.it felt bad to hate it,just the message that were sent run through her mind nonetheless,without a single care and tention,her mother was free to ask such reckless things.

Her mind kept thinking of the said things,those things that were muttered under her back with a disguise of sweetness in her face.never in her life she thought toxicity was ever in her family for her,but she saw everything.

she felt the sincerity of her sister while she muttered out those thoughts while yn cheerfully exclaimed the Promotion she got.

Working up being the eldest daughter with being a student was never easy for yn,what she wished was to become a doctor,but never in her life she got enough brain neither had such condition to be a doctor,but things changed and her luck charm worked in other aspects.

Comparing her life to her friends,it was nothing.she sounded the most hypocrite in them,but she was the only one who stood this successful and earning at the age she once would determine.

"Let's go,hun."maahi,the girl who was older than her with the difference of six months stood as an elder sister anyone would desire,the soft aura that lingered around maahi was desperate for anyone.

Yn nodded getting up,her clothes remained clean and changed from the one she wore yesterday,a band-aid not revealing the ugly scar soon to be formed

Her phone gripped tight in her hand.

"Where is nitya."maahi pointed at the counter,yn's eyes travelled to see nitya walking over to them with grace and s furious face.as nitya neared them,maahi frowned in confusion,"what is it."she asked to the fuming girl.

"That cash counter girl is an idiot.won't get things done quick,how are you love."

Nitya frowned in worry,duality showing like she was a serious infecte of bipolar disease.

"Fine.how much did it cost."yn's hummed voice was weak to even sound loud words a bit thick as the bussling environment around the giant private hospital lounge area tempted the already hot day.

"You don't want to be injected with doses of insulin,do you now-

"Wait,why insulin-

"Cause she will be tired after being beaten up by me-

"And insulin is not dosed in a person when you're tired,it's glucose we give-

"And we get glucose from sugar,sugar from insulin-

"She forgot fucks sake dosen't have diabetes,how the hell you ended up in a pharmaceutical company-

"I manage the data of our company for your kind information-

"And I'm the scientist of our branch-

"Yn is the head of you guys-

"Will you guys stop."yn exhaled a deep breath,feeling a pang of tiredness hit her body again,burning her inner organs.

Those two even tho send glares down on each other,none of them wished to stress out their loved friend even more.

"Let's go."nitya mumbled under her breath,it was a chilly day before they had to visit the hospital for yn's sudden downfall,her mental health was getting stable just some how and again,the breakage through her built barrier was coming in view.

While yn,nitya and maahi walked through,nitya was holding yn's hand as they walked,her sole attention on the way before them while maahi was engaged in a phone call.

All the three witnessed the scene befolding in front of them,a man all bruised up being held by the collar was dragged in the hospital,his bloodied legs coating the floor with an uncanny pattern and everyone secured away.

Nitya and maahi gasped at the sight of blood and the gothic state the poor lad was being dragged away,they took a side,

Yn was just behind nitya,even after being the oldest there in them no matter if it was some months old,the two still pampered her.

"What is he doing."nitya gasped out with clear fear dangling her words that left through those plum lips colliding with each other with each word she spoke.

"Surely not playing basketball,i guess."yn mumbled,earning a scolding look from maahi.

"Shut up,both of you."one glare and they stood silent,yet the eerie silence that was running through the whole Frozen hall remained constant.

The man was thrown on the floor rigidly,

The men's in black giving the vibe of a mafia or either they were from a cult,

Made a grand get very Gothic way through the bustling entrance,standing with a gap that echoed with respect and fear from where,a man,extremely tall that even a one year old can say he was near or more than six feet tall.

Slim yet musculine body washed his face with the sharp looks,high cheekbones and razor like jawline,well defined and craved nose and lips,yn's eyes caught up with his eyes.

Those pair of eyes were one of the rarest to see,he himself felt so rare.his eyes for a second yn thought were feminine,if not his bold face and plum lips,which were so dangerously craved and the tattoo that ran through his neck to the back side of his palm as he brushed his hair locks,silky in texture with good amount of volume,his eyes looked Arabic,and feminine.

So much of beauty held in them,the hint of ice blue among the dark depts of royal indigo and brown mixing to create such a contrastive piece that god himself will think thousands of times to make one with such beauty out of millions.

His eyes looked like siren,he was dominating,like an alpha.eyebrow naturally trimmed and in a sharp curve with a point that lowered it down his eye.

His vibrant eyes that held such depth in them to make anyone to lost wandered around with amusement,spark of something yn thought was affection running through the chowder waves of his ocean like deep eyes.

But affection of what,fear.

"He is so hwat."maahi stepped on the foot of nitya who whisper shouted,

frowning at the Havoc he created.Yn leaned in nitya,shaking her head with a slight smile knowing well of her nature.

But yn found herself lost,too much confused when the eyes of the same man dressed in an expensive suit and built with posh and elegance,laid on her.

The plain black storm carrying eyes,small in shape but spoke so wise and so dense made an appearance in those blue and brown contrasting eyes of the man who stood there,at some good distance but there was a pull that threw him where the much shorter girl stood.

Away from him,but felt too close,but she had something that made the walking tornado stop his eyes at a place and keep staring at those plain black orbs.

Her shorter frame was with a good posture,not the most petite nor the most fat,she stood with plain self and plain clothes.her silk like textured hairs that had a soft curl from downwards neatly tucked behind her ear remained unchanged,the colour of her hairs coming out more lighter than what it actually was,it shined like pure  hazelnut in the lights.

The small hooded eyes that held those captivating black orbs,so plain but once looked into it,they were no less than battling with a black hole,it had deadly attraction battling with the long lashes curled on her eyelids,the beauty she had in her simplicity was nothing compared to wonders of the world.

He found himself so lost in the thoughts of the unknown girl who was not even known to him,but she in a one or two was successful to show him what kind of depth a real ocean has unlike his eyes.

An ocean dosen't have blue depth,like his eyes that recieved constant stares,his beauty failed infront of the attraction her eyes had,cause she showed him the alluring darkness that rest in the depth of plain ocean.

The fake attraction are his eyes,but the calming sources were her orbs,but he found himself too lost,unlike usual.his eyes that would glimmer with amusement of happiness he'd get seeing the fear among people for him,he found

himself so confused when she stood devoid of any emotions.

Something strange that he witnessed.

"If eyes can kill,I'm dead now."